I am healing from a NASTY stomach bug or food poisoning or something. Whatever it was it started late Saturday night. I was either puking or sleeping or crying for the next 2 days. Luckily the puking stopped late Sunday but the exhaustion continued until Monday. When I say exhaustion I mean I COULD NOT wake up for anything, and I kept having crazy dreams. Ugh! It was awful! SO whenever I get sick my depression loves to pop up and shake it's ugly ass for me. Then the little beast worms around in my thoughts and tries to make me feel crazy. It was successful. Most of yesterday I spent crying and thinking depressing thoughts. I know it's because I was sick, I missed one day of my meds and I am still recovering. That doesn't make it easier to deal with though. So today I discovered the cure for me, at least for now. I went on You Tube and listened to a lot of angry rock music, ahh soothing for my soul! I have no idea why it worked but I am feeling normal now and, dare I say, hopeful! So blog here's a good tune to rev you up!
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Mi Vida Loca
I miss my computer!!!!!! I miss being able to just jump on and do my thing anytime I want to. Urgh! We are seeing if our computer can be salvaged at all, so fingers crossed!
Meanwhile in mi vida loca, life goes on. My oldest is really getting serious about applying for colleges. It's a very surreal experience. I work part-time at a ;local university and work often around college kids. Needless to say I've been getting all kinds of advice for the application procedure.
My second son is swimming through his sophomore year at high school. He is most excited about the Japanese club resuming. He really has a fascination with Japan and everything about it. Luckily they teach Japanese at his school. He's in his 2nd year and loving it.
My youngest son joined the FIRST robotics team at his school. He has always been a builder and now he'll get to participate in building robots and having competitions with them.
My oldest daughter has joined the FCCLA club and is trying out for the Glee club. She tried out for the basketball team but didn't make the cut. She handled it pretty well though. Her biggest problem right now is trying to pick the perfect song to audition with for the Glee club.
My youngest daughter has asked to be a cheerleader. Even thought the though makes my stomach churn we are going to let her do it. She is thrilled. She is also doing so much better in school now that her learning disability has been diagnosed and ealt with. She gets extra help with her reading and it has made worlds of difference!
My old man is on call for the next week. This means he lives next to the on-call phone and goes out any time. I like the overtime that it comes with, but miss the hell out of seeing him.
As for myself, I am recovering from a cold. I blame my job. I am constantly going and coming. I really do feel like a taxi driver sometimes, but no tips. My depression is under control, but I am keeping an eye on it. I tend to go down a bit in the colder months so this year I am trying to stay on top of it.
I have been crafting but don't have a way to upload any pictures yet, so you'll just have to hold on a bit longer. I have missed you blog! My favorite holiday is coming up though!!!! HALLOWEEN!! Now it's almost time for us to decorate. The costumes have been discussed and even worked on a little already! So far we have: Rocketman, zombie princess, and Coraline... I love Halloween so much!
Meanwhile in mi vida loca, life goes on. My oldest is really getting serious about applying for colleges. It's a very surreal experience. I work part-time at a ;local university and work often around college kids. Needless to say I've been getting all kinds of advice for the application procedure.
My second son is swimming through his sophomore year at high school. He is most excited about the Japanese club resuming. He really has a fascination with Japan and everything about it. Luckily they teach Japanese at his school. He's in his 2nd year and loving it.
My youngest son joined the FIRST robotics team at his school. He has always been a builder and now he'll get to participate in building robots and having competitions with them.
My oldest daughter has joined the FCCLA club and is trying out for the Glee club. She tried out for the basketball team but didn't make the cut. She handled it pretty well though. Her biggest problem right now is trying to pick the perfect song to audition with for the Glee club.
My youngest daughter has asked to be a cheerleader. Even thought the though makes my stomach churn we are going to let her do it. She is thrilled. She is also doing so much better in school now that her learning disability has been diagnosed and ealt with. She gets extra help with her reading and it has made worlds of difference!
My old man is on call for the next week. This means he lives next to the on-call phone and goes out any time. I like the overtime that it comes with, but miss the hell out of seeing him.
As for myself, I am recovering from a cold. I blame my job. I am constantly going and coming. I really do feel like a taxi driver sometimes, but no tips. My depression is under control, but I am keeping an eye on it. I tend to go down a bit in the colder months so this year I am trying to stay on top of it.
I have been crafting but don't have a way to upload any pictures yet, so you'll just have to hold on a bit longer. I have missed you blog! My favorite holiday is coming up though!!!! HALLOWEEN!! Now it's almost time for us to decorate. The costumes have been discussed and even worked on a little already! So far we have: Rocketman, zombie princess, and Coraline... I love Halloween so much!
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
When Life Hands You Lemons...
Buy some vodka!
Seriously, why do bad things always come in patches? We have had a ton of stress running through my house lately. That results in pointless arguments with my old man, and my depression trying to advantage of the situation! So I need to remind myself of the positives I have. First I have them:
They drive me crazy and make me laugh and I am so thankful I have them!
Right now the two oldest are in Tennessee visiting Dollywood with my parents. The remaining three have been taking advantage of the situation by hosting sleepovers. My youngest son had a gameover, the 14 year old boy version of a sleepover. It's called a gameover because you play games all night, or at least try to.
I'm also lucky enough to have these gals:
These beautiful ladies are my BFFs. I love them both so much and am so grateful they are in my life!
Of course I also have this guy:
Although he can be a major Ass when he wants to, I love the heck of out him. He drives me crazy too but is also my love...
So I guess I am lucky, I have a lot of people who care about me... There I feel better now, thanks for listening....
Seriously, why do bad things always come in patches? We have had a ton of stress running through my house lately. That results in pointless arguments with my old man, and my depression trying to advantage of the situation! So I need to remind myself of the positives I have. First I have them:
They drive me crazy and make me laugh and I am so thankful I have them!
Right now the two oldest are in Tennessee visiting Dollywood with my parents. The remaining three have been taking advantage of the situation by hosting sleepovers. My youngest son had a gameover, the 14 year old boy version of a sleepover. It's called a gameover because you play games all night, or at least try to.
I'm also lucky enough to have these gals:
These beautiful ladies are my BFFs. I love them both so much and am so grateful they are in my life!
Of course I also have this guy:
Although he can be a major Ass when he wants to, I love the heck of out him. He drives me crazy too but is also my love...
So I guess I am lucky, I have a lot of people who care about me... There I feel better now, thanks for listening....
Friday, March 23, 2012
It's Friday all ready?
Damn. You see I work every day except Wednesdays and Thursdays. So the "beginning" of my work week starts on Fridays. Ugh, back to work I go....
Before I go though, how about a quick life update? I am working on my first tutorial but having a lot more mistakes than anticipated so hopefully it won't take me too long. My older daughter is getting glasses and is SO excited about them. I think she'll look fabulous!
I am trying to get healthier one tiny step at a time. My first step was to drink my required water every day. I took care of that by lugging around a 50 oz bottle of smart water that I refill daily. So far I've noticed my skin seems a bit more hydrated and my sinus' seem clearer, and of course I have pee a ton. I also bought a pedometer but I have to fix mine. It registers every time I move my hips as a step. I do a lot of dancing in place. So I want to see if I can fix it or if I need to get a better pedometer. Next week I am adding walking my dogs around my neighborhood once a week. My insane dogs will love that and believe me it's a workout! My husband wants to buy the P90X system but I say let's start with smaller, more realistic steps first.
As for my depression I am definitely on an upswing. I feel so normal and hopeful! It's just so great to feel normal again... I'm loving life right now!
So off to work I go, but crafts run 'round my mind the whole time! So I carry a little notebook with me to jot down or sketch any crafty ideas that pop up. Plus if I hit a blank on what to make next I just look into my ideas book and viola! Have a great weekend!
http://www.patinastores.com/catalog/home/decor/wall-art/imperfections-plaque.html
Before I go though, how about a quick life update? I am working on my first tutorial but having a lot more mistakes than anticipated so hopefully it won't take me too long. My older daughter is getting glasses and is SO excited about them. I think she'll look fabulous!
I am trying to get healthier one tiny step at a time. My first step was to drink my required water every day. I took care of that by lugging around a 50 oz bottle of smart water that I refill daily. So far I've noticed my skin seems a bit more hydrated and my sinus' seem clearer, and of course I have pee a ton. I also bought a pedometer but I have to fix mine. It registers every time I move my hips as a step. I do a lot of dancing in place. So I want to see if I can fix it or if I need to get a better pedometer. Next week I am adding walking my dogs around my neighborhood once a week. My insane dogs will love that and believe me it's a workout! My husband wants to buy the P90X system but I say let's start with smaller, more realistic steps first.
As for my depression I am definitely on an upswing. I feel so normal and hopeful! It's just so great to feel normal again... I'm loving life right now!
So off to work I go, but crafts run 'round my mind the whole time! So I carry a little notebook with me to jot down or sketch any crafty ideas that pop up. Plus if I hit a blank on what to make next I just look into my ideas book and viola! Have a great weekend!
http://www.patinastores.com/catalog/home/decor/wall-art/imperfections-plaque.html
Monday, February 27, 2012
And now for something completely different....
I have mentioned before that I have Major Depressive Disorder. I had a rough week last week, I was sick with strep, my hubby had to work mad hours, and general stress just kind of got to me. So my lovely MDD monster roared it's head and reminded me of it's presence. Then I made the worst mistake I possibly could have and ran out of my medication. My doctor wasn't in the office to okay a refill and the stupid pharmacy wouldn't give me any to tide me over. So this weekend was awful! I had the worst withdrawal symptoms: massive guilt and sadness, dizziness, and generally feeling like absolute shit. It sucked. Luckily I was able to get my refill today and hopefully I will be back to normal within a few days. So take this as a friendly reminder that you should never let your anti-depressants run out! I will definitely be staying of top of it from here on out!
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
How about Misc?
Since my camera is still MIA, hopefully not for too long I thought I'd take a different approach to my life. I am miore than crafts if you can believe it! I might have mentioned it before but I have Major Depressive Disorder, MDD. Basically this means I have a disorder that includes depression and anxiety. It loads of fun, NOT! I control it with meds and therapy. I am pulling out of a downspiral again, hence the reason I re-started my blog. Writing and showing off my crafts makes me happy so there you go!
As you also know from my little intro over there-----> I have five amazing offspring. They include three boys and two girls and range in age from 8 to 16 years old. They constantly keep me either laughing or wanting to drink heavily, mostly laughing though! The one thing I knew I wanted to be when I grew up was a MOM, and I think I've done pretty well. My kids are smart, beautiful, funny, courteous, and a joy to have.
Lastly, I have to talk some sort of crafting! I have been working on several projects. I am crochet animals and monsters, painting weird doll heads, and trying fabric filled embroidery hoops from here: http://scenicglory.blogspot.com/2011/07/things-im-loving-this-monday.html
(photo courtesy of scenic glory)
I hope you are having a fantastic day and having fun!
As you also know from my little intro over there-----> I have five amazing offspring. They include three boys and two girls and range in age from 8 to 16 years old. They constantly keep me either laughing or wanting to drink heavily, mostly laughing though! The one thing I knew I wanted to be when I grew up was a MOM, and I think I've done pretty well. My kids are smart, beautiful, funny, courteous, and a joy to have.
Lastly, I have to talk some sort of crafting! I have been working on several projects. I am crochet animals and monsters, painting weird doll heads, and trying fabric filled embroidery hoops from here: http://scenicglory.blogspot.com/2011/07/things-im-loving-this-monday.html
(photo courtesy of scenic glory)
I hope you are having a fantastic day and having fun!
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