I don't own a scale. I see no need for it. So currently I am at my parent's house visiting for Mother's Day. Plus it's the first weekend I'm not working. So I haven't been up here since Christmas. My parents do own a scale and I weighed myself for the first time in a long time. I shouldn't have done that. I am at my absolutely highest weight of my life. I knew I had gained weight since I quit smoking, I just didn't realize it would be THAT much! Okay blogworld, here's my weight: 285 pounds, AGHHH! That is so close to 300! It sets of my anxiety and depression just thinking about it. Now I wrestle with do I freak out and diet or do I start loving myself no matter what and deal with it that way.
Thankfully we have the internet. If you feel down about being a fattie then read some of these:
There are some amazing people out there you know? I feel so much better after exploring. I really liked that last link I put up and I think I just need to change my way of thinking. I am amazing, all 285 pounds of me and I want to live life to the fullest!